Coming out on the other side of things I’ve realized a few things so far.
For one, just because you can force yourself to hold onto something for an extended amount of time doesn’t mean it’s something that’s for you.
I’m a stubborn person, and sometimes I don’t realize all the ways that my stubbornness can affect my life.
I had convinced myself that this thing I had been holding onto was something for me – even though it was in direct opposition to my faith, my beliefs and even went against what I knew to be right and correct.
Sitting here right now, I just don’t know what I was thinking. *face palm*
I don’t know why I felt the need to do or be this thing I was trying to be for so long.
It feels kinda weird to let it go, but at the same time it feels like a relief.
For 5 years I took on the identity of this thing and now I feel like nothing.
I’m still processing this, because at the moment – I have no clue.